reading johnny's blog really made me feel like i ought to thank so many people around me.

but first thing's first.
happy birthday mummie! (:
i didn't do much for my mummie.
but all i hope is that she enjoys this day of hers.
and that the rest of the year will be better for her.


so, back to gratitude.

my closest friend. for all your unfailing promises, and showers of love and concern. it really made a big difference in my life. for all those times when you are so sensitive to how i feel, how you always stood by me, how you always supported me despite disagreements, how you would always make a trip down to my place just cause i ain't feeling too good, how you would always turn up just by receiving a call from me. for always encouraging me, for always never giving up on me, for always being a pillar of support in my life. and the list goes on. thankyou. (:


my close friend. a lot of stuff happened between us. but i'm glad everything turned out well in the end. also for all the love you showered. those simple hugs, and those words that told me everything would be fine. and for those attempts of trying to keep up with my life, while maintaining your own. and also for all those lame moments of laughter, those moments of craziness. i miss all of those. i know without you, i wouldn't have made it this far though. so, thankyou. (:

the one i've been talking to. yep, you. for taking the effort to read my blog, for sending e-mails filled with concern, for those random greetings through sms, for those silly conversations, for always cheering me up when you know i'm down. a few more months to a year since we knew each other, and i'm glad i met you. thankyou. (:


the one in my class. for being such a buddy, for always tagging to cheer me up and to show me you care. thankyou. (:

the one who sleeps beside me. for playing such a wonderful role in my life, for being so understanding, for being so loving and everything else. you're my biggest role model, because i know how brave you've been. i've seen it through my 18 years of living with you. thankyou. (:

the one i walk to school with. for being such a friend when i needed it, for being concerned, for crapping with me all the time. thankyou. (:

lastly..

the one .. just the one. for showering me with love all these while, for tolerating my nonsense, for trying so hard to change, for always standing on my side, for giving me your best, .. you know what they are. i'm sorry that's all i could think of. i really wanna thank you, but .. -hugs. thankyou. (: ..


and for all those darlings who have been reading my blog.
thanks for bothering to read this. (:
i really appreciate it.

loves,
lynette.

and all the memories came flooding back again.

every night has been so tough since then.

and never again are they memories that will make me smile.

i haven't blogged for 5 days,
what a miracle. haha.
actually, i'm barely online.
only on to check my emails.

anyways, i read harry potter and the deathly hallows already.
heh, quite interesting.
but was a bit draggy throughout.
nevertheless, not disappointing. :D

hmm, i've been running a fever these days.
according to my grandma and hiro.


and i don't know what else to say le.
not feeling very well.
so yup, take cares yah!
the weather's bad these days.

loves. (:

i'm sorry if all these seemed a little fake.
that i'm still as happy in real life.

but the truth is, i'm really breaking down inside.
i don't know how to face it;
so i'd rather take it as a joke in front of you.

quoting:

".. I know I've wronged and i promise you i wont ever ever lie to you again. I swear. .."

and promises are meant to be broken.

".. I really was in a mess last night. .."
-160407

and i finally understood what you meant.

"I can't ... I got work tonight .."
-160407

was that what you meant?

":( can dont ask guys go out? ..."
-160407

and now i wonder what right did you have to say all those ..
where were your guilt?

".. i too demanding? :("

haha ..

".. I'm sorry for everything. Thank you so much for everything. .."
-160407; 2347
".. sorry about last night. Damn Headache that's why sleep so fast. >.< .."
-170407; 0733

and .. you had the cheeks to tell me that? ..
was that what you actually meant?
you were just with her that's why right ..

as i read through all those messages ..
i thought to myself,
how could you possibly still say all those stuff while doing those behind my back?

any idea how fake everything got?
and to think i've been believing every single thing you did/said ..
i've been living a lie all these while.

i'm sorry,
but it's hard to move on.

--- -------

i didn't go for econs lecture today.
hahaha, partly cause i hate the lecturer.

went to jupiter cafe with mark.
ate chicken leg pasta.

had accountings tutorial after that.

after which, commskills meeting.
did commskills until 6plus.

met hiro for dinner after that.

that was my day. (: ..

quoting:

".. you know what you are? you are an angel. the sweetest, most forgiving, and the cutest angel of all.."

".. you see, you always know what to say and when to say it. :) you're just amazing. :) .."


and, i was wondering, if all those are true,
why did what happened happen?

what would you do if you found out your 5years buddy was lying to you all these while?
what would you do if you wake up to see your world crumbling down right in front of you?
what would you do if you wake up, only to realise that everything you lived has been a lie?

refer to my livejournal. thank you.

and through all these,
i really see who cares for me and stuff.
and i feel really loved.
i've learnt to be a lot more appreciative. (:

but going near you still hurts,
no matter how hard i try.
thoughts of you&her just keeps entering my mind.
why did you do what you did?
how could you have done it?
pleasure despite feeling guilty?
how could it be .. they are two very contradicting feelings.
sighs, i don't know.
i feel like i'm being trampled upon, all dirty and unwanted.


on a positive note,
today totally rock-ed! :D
all thanks to may, nic cheong, weiqiang, badd, mervyn and kevin! (:
all the fun and laughter.
we should do this again some day!

met badd at first.
the rest were all late.
haha, though it was worth it. (:

went to eat with may and badd.
ate finished then mervyn, nicholas and weiqiang came after that.
then we headed for marina square!
bowlinggggg. hahaha.
first time of my life!
my very first one was a strike!
can you believe it? :D
-beams. hahaha.

after that we went to eat again at long john silver.
after which we went to watch our fireworks!
i think it was very nice!
i like some parts. :D
i don't particularly like fireworks though.
they're .. frightening. x_x
like, BOOM BOOM BOOM!
ohmygosh. i jump at it all the time.
rawrr. but still quite nice! :D

then we gave weiqiang a reallyy belated birthday celebration!
hahaha. may and nic went to buy cake @ mrs fieldz.
heh, not bad! quite nice, but maybe a little too sweet.
but super heaty. :(
so my pre-planned kbox date has to be cancelled.
cause i think i'm losing my voice again. rawr.

then basically, we just played and crapped around after that @ esplanade.
nic left at about 0015, then kevin came slightly before that or after i think.
haha. i'm very glad we got to know each other more. :D
it feels like we've known each other since secondary school days!
so cool hor! :D

LOVES!

mark is love today!
thanks for listening and being there!
was comforting to know you are there. (: ..
also thanks for being so concerned!
-hugs. (:

graciee is big big love! [heh. specially for you in the colours of rainbow. (:]
words cannot express my gratitude.
really thanks.
spending your time with me despite all the workloads you had.
for once in a long long time, you made me feel so loved. :D
-hugstight.


thanks so so much.
i would have die if not for you`s.


and jack, if you read this,
i miss you lah!
how could you be missing at such a time ..
-hopesforyourreturn.

thank you for showing me all those truths.
you made me convinced that no matter how much guys claim that they love you, their words can never be fully trusted.

you were the one i trusted the most.
you were.

i will never believe in guys again.
but each time i do,
i'll hurt myself physically.

i'll let myself learn it the physical way;
the hard way.

so i skipped the very first tutorial in my life today;
communication skills.
but i suppose i didn't miss much.
was on oral presentation anyways.

headed to school for economics tutorial.
and mrs lee has stated that she wouldn't call me to answer questions.
and if she does, she makes sure it's a tough one.
so unfair right?
unequality;
but life is never fair.

after tutorial, junhui and me went to see their captain ball training.
the guys are interesting luh. hahaha.
and keith is damn cute! small boy lah he. lol.

then junhui, being an angel, accompanied me to suntec to queue for DONUTS!
hehe. :D
we cabbed there and queued for about 1 hour.
so i bought a dozen for myself.
half a dozen for grace and hiro each.
(: hope you guys liked it!

so i went to paya lebar to pass grace the donuts.
then i went over to hiro's place to pass him his.

that's pretty much my day.
how was yours? (:

ps. thanks johnny for being there. (:

i just read one of my dance seniors' blog.
and i feel .. really affected[?].
i hope i wasn't the one who offended him!
because he seems abit .. hostile.

but then again, maybe it's too sensitive on my part.

let's all hope for the best! (:

but life goes on!

especially with all those project datelines coming up.
oh, what a #&($@*#.
my communication skills report is due next friday,
which is in about 10 days.
and guess what?
my group hasn't even startedd.

and lynette hasn't done her economics newspaper analysis! x_x

oh right, talking about economics.
i swear today's lecturer suck, like totally. (parrot chessia's slang)
i'm not going for next week's lecture, i promise. (i think)
since it's on monopolistic competition and oligopoly. =.=
but still, ohmygosh. seriously, he sucks lah!
>=[

anyway, this friday 1200-1300 spells the very first of my lounge duty.
i'm feeling pretty excited actually! :D


ah, haven't done my apel portfolio.
and it's due tomorrow.
good luck lyn! haha.


ever since vibes ended, i feel so free.
nothing to do the whole day. =.=
someone date me!
hahaha.

have a nice week ahead. (:
loves!

:D

so, vibes ended off really great!
with right hand rule getting champion!
heh, congrats! :D

this whole experience thing was just great. (:
thanks to chessia, melissa, martin, badd and guan zuo!
you have been fantastic team members! :D
so so so happy to have been on the same team as you guys.
all those giving in to each other;
it is seen and deeply appreciated! :D

secondly, may's team.
we bonded like really well with them!
thanks may darling, vanessa, andy, nicholas, kevin, james and mervin! :D
been so fun with you guys around and stuff!
like, totally! hahah.

thirdly, BESTIE! :D
my bestie is the best bestie on earth!
heh, exclusively mine! xD

lastly, the nicest male senior around in tpde.
weiqiang! :D
and the nicest female senior around,
unice! :D
friendly, sweet, and everything nice! (:


i love all of them luh. :D
-grouphug!
hahahaa.

yours truly,
lyn. (:

hmm, what to say?
nothing in particular these days.
just alot of dance practices ah.
quite happy today, most of the stuff done.
and guan zuo is being very hardworking by trying to master all the steps.
i'm consoled. (:

hmm, so we were playing truth and truth while some of them were practising.
and someone commented that he/she feels that i'm abit haolian.
which was saddening. :(
but yah! nevermind.
lynette want to slowly change.
so must ask people how they feel about her ah. (:

hmm, 5 more days before weiliang departs?
still haven't done the stuff for him. ><

getting back econs tomorrow.

heh. take care. (:

journey to home was such a scary one.
it really sucks to be all alone there.
the darkness creeps in on you.

and then all kind of thoughts flooded my mind.
like, some serial killer attacking me,
or some ghost popping up on me.
fear filled my heart,
but death seems comforting.

i'll have to learn how to be independent and not always depend on others to be there for me!
can de can de!


anyway. i signed up for bsc sub-comm.
loulin forced us. >=[ haha.
so.. i guess i'm going?
but it definitely holds the least position in my priorities. (:

dance practice was .. good. (:
i was abit fierce, but yah.
i'm very happy with my members.
they've been so cooperative.
loves!


anyway. i just e-mailed someone to do some clarification.
she didn't like me cause of some stuff ..
quite affected by it.
so i hope this will solve the problem.
afterall, i think i'll have to face her pretty often.
yupp. lynette is become braver! (:

and yes, smart lynette got 44/50 for her csa. :D
and idiotic sheamson got 45 being the highest in class.
i swear i wanna kill him. rawr.
somemore, during commskills, he was like
"i think i'm gonna fail csa."
then i replied, if you get highest for csa, i'll slap you.
then grace highfive-ed me. loll.
second highest! heh. :D

and -sayangsjunhui.
don't be sad. :D

went to weiliang's place yesterday.
ate some hotdogs and one chicken wing.
then went up to his place to get some stuff.

weiliang was sweet enough to make me honey-ed water. :D
quite nice. haha.
then i decided to rest awhile on the sofa.
and, i fell asleep. =.=
when i woke up, it was twelve midnight.
seems like jack and weiliang had a hard time waking me up.
and it's so embarrassing i swear!
i think they two were laughing at me lah!
they kept calling me then i fall back asleep. >.<

anyway. weiliang's dad offered to send me home.
i was damn scared lah. x_x
but yah, it was damn nice of him!

so i was home safe and sound.
went to bed almost right away when i got home. (:

thanks everyone. :D

all my life, i've been searching for you
and i wonder if you've found me too

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